Tonight as I checked my facebook, I came across this post for Lemon Curd. I was instantly drooling with lust and an intense craving for pudding. I read the post a couple of times before realizing that I would have a bunch of egg whites left over, and egg whites were perfect for chocolate pudding, like I blogged about here.
One of my favorite things to do - when I am craving pudding - is make two different puddings, and then put a dollop of each into my bowl so that I can eat them separately and yet together. :-) This seemed like a match made in heaven, almost as perfect as tapioca and chocolate pudding. Mmm.....
So, I started by separating 12 egg yolks into one bowl, and the whites into another. For the lemon curd, I followed the directions exactly, except... lol! I didn't have fresh lemons so I used organic lemon juice, and she says that she uses a LOT because she likes it sour, and that most people would probably want less. Taking that to heart, I used only 1 cup of the lemon juice, but retained the 1/2 cup of honey. I also used butter rather than ghee.
So, for a quick run down, I tossed 2 sticks of organic valley cultured butter into a pot on low to melt while I was separating the yolks from the whites. Then I added the lemon juice and the honey to it. I stirred until the honey was melted - I use raw honey from a local farm that's available in the health food section of most stores. After the mix was melded, I slowly poured it into the bowl with the egg yolks, and mixed that pretty thoroughly for about 30 seconds or so, using my mixers so I didn't wear my hand out, lol!
I returned the entire mix to the pot, and heated over medium. I honestly started with low, but I tend to get impatient, and kept increasing the temp until it just barely started to boil, and then I returned it to low. At that point, the Lemon Curd had thickened beautifully, so I turned the mix off and set it aside to cool.
Then, I made the chocolate pudding by adding 4 heaping spoonfuls of Rapunzel Organic 100% pure Cocoa powder to the egg whites, and about 1/4 cup of maple syrup. I beat the whites with my mixer until it turned into a soft meringue. Then, in a bigger bowl - because I inadvertently chose one too small for the whole mix - I beat 2 cups of cream (I measured this time, lol!) along with another 1/4 to maybe 1/2 cup of maple syrup. When that turned into whipped cream, I added the soft meringue to the bowl, and then mixed it together on high until it was completely melded, and the thickness was perfect for me. Puddingy :-) Though my hubby still thinks it's more of a mousse than pudding, but who cares! It's seriously tasty!
To serve, I put a scoop of Lemon Curd into a bowl, careful to keep it on just one side, and then scooped a dollop of chocolate pudding into the other side of the bowl. I am SOOOO glad I did this!!! The Lemon Curd was TART! Which was perfect for making a lemon torte or a Lemon Meringue pie, but if wanting to eat this as a pudding or custard - or curd, lol! - it was a bit too tart. The chocolate pudding was the perfect balance since it was a bit on the sweet side.
Now, I'm thinking that I may just need to make a few pie crusts, because it would be seriously easy to turn the leftovers of each into pies. The Lemon Curd will naturally set as it cools, so pouring it into the crust and setting it in the fridge would be all I need to do. As for the pudding, I could very easily add say crumbled organic Oreos and make a chocolate mousse pie.
Then again, I don't really need the carbs, lol! I think I'll stick with pudding :-)
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Tuesday, March 27, 2012
Tuesday, March 13, 2012
My Apologies
I'm sorry that I haven't posted practically anything at all this month, but aside from my computer effing up, and leaving me without my word program, I have been really REALLY tired. Not just tired, I've been able to sleep! It's so weird, I go to bed at night, fall asleep and stay that way until morning! (The sleep is seriously cutting into my time to write.)
Honestly, I'm enjoying this new ability :-) I found out a couple of days ago that this ability is only temporary, sigh... It's happened before... Check it out:
I'm only 6 weeks 6 days according to the ultrasound, but I feel at least 2 or 3 times as pregnant! In fact, I thought I was having twins! But no, there's just one. We want a girl. We ALL want a girl! I am going to spend the next couple of weeks telling this baby that she WILL be a girl damnit! Lol!
I'm going to crochet some things for her in pink, and purple. (Once I buy some yarn.) That will cut into my writing time too, but don't fear, come the third trimester - if I continue on in the same pattern - I will be awake practically around the clock. There's nothing quite like being unable to sleep when a baby is about to come into your life and keep you up constantly.
THAT'S why women get PPD in my opinion. They get so little sleep that they turn into depressive homicidal and suicidal maniacs! Or at least that's what happened to me after Phoenix was born (and for a little bit when Gryffin was colicky).
Anyway, I'm excited :-) AND terribly anxious! With my first two, I didn't even know I was pregnant. With Gryffin I found out at 32 weeks, and had him a month later. With Phoenix, I suspected for a little while beforehand, but didn't confirm until I was 24 weeks. So, it's a bit terrifying to know this early when there's still a risk of miscarriage.
Not to mention, I spotted the DAY AFTER I found out! I was so sad and scared when I saw the brownish blood, but I forced myself to be calm. After all, some women just bleed while pregnant. I went into the doctor right away, and a vaginal exam plus the ultrasound confirmed that everything is fine, phew!
Funny story: My Hubby came home late Friday night, and I was antsy to tell him that I was possibly pregnant, but as I told him I was having some weird symptoms - the ability to sleep, random nausea, constipation, feeling like I can't breathe, itchy nipples, pain that could be stretching in my lower abdomen - he fell asleep.
To be fair, we were in bed, and it was after midnight. He heard, "I've been able to sleep at night, take naps, AND STILL sleep all night!" before he was out cold, lol! The next morning, I couldn't tell him, but I kept insisting that we HAD to go to the store so I could buy something.
When he finally asked me what was so important, I whispered "A pregnancy test" in his ear so that they boys wouldn't hear. He immediately looked nauseous. I think his aura darkened, lol! He muttered something like "you better not be!"
I went to the store, bought the test, came home, and went to the bathroom. A couple minutes later, I showed the test to my Hubby, and after taking a good look, he blurts out, "Fuck!" I immediately turned around and walked away so that he wouldn't see me grin or hear me laugh, lol! I expected his reaction, and it made me laugh!
After that, we talked about not telling anyone until I was much farther along. The conversation went like this:
Me: "Honey, I think we should keep this a secret for a while."
Hubby: "Yeah, me too."
Me: "Oh really? Why?"
Hubby: "Because I don't want to hear what people are going to say."
Me: "That's exactly why I wanted to keep it a secret too!"
Sad to say, but we know quite a few people who are going to think - but hopefully not say out loud - Oh great! Those are the LAST two people who should be having another baby! I figured that I'd announce it here on my blog first because, ironically, none of those people read my blog anyway. So, in that way, I will be keeping it a secret from them until later. When I have an ultrasound pic that actually looks like a baby... Maybe about 12 weeks or so... That's when I'll make the official announcement :-)
However, like wildfire, I bet they'll hear the rumor spread, lol!
Anyway, so now you all know why I haven't and probably won't be posting quite as often. Don't worry, when the time is right, I'll have tons more stuff to post, I'm sure :-)
Have a happy day!
Honestly, I'm enjoying this new ability :-) I found out a couple of days ago that this ability is only temporary, sigh... It's happened before... Check it out:
I'm only 6 weeks 6 days according to the ultrasound, but I feel at least 2 or 3 times as pregnant! In fact, I thought I was having twins! But no, there's just one. We want a girl. We ALL want a girl! I am going to spend the next couple of weeks telling this baby that she WILL be a girl damnit! Lol!
I'm going to crochet some things for her in pink, and purple. (Once I buy some yarn.) That will cut into my writing time too, but don't fear, come the third trimester - if I continue on in the same pattern - I will be awake practically around the clock. There's nothing quite like being unable to sleep when a baby is about to come into your life and keep you up constantly.
THAT'S why women get PPD in my opinion. They get so little sleep that they turn into depressive homicidal and suicidal maniacs! Or at least that's what happened to me after Phoenix was born (and for a little bit when Gryffin was colicky).
Anyway, I'm excited :-) AND terribly anxious! With my first two, I didn't even know I was pregnant. With Gryffin I found out at 32 weeks, and had him a month later. With Phoenix, I suspected for a little while beforehand, but didn't confirm until I was 24 weeks. So, it's a bit terrifying to know this early when there's still a risk of miscarriage.
Not to mention, I spotted the DAY AFTER I found out! I was so sad and scared when I saw the brownish blood, but I forced myself to be calm. After all, some women just bleed while pregnant. I went into the doctor right away, and a vaginal exam plus the ultrasound confirmed that everything is fine, phew!
Funny story: My Hubby came home late Friday night, and I was antsy to tell him that I was possibly pregnant, but as I told him I was having some weird symptoms - the ability to sleep, random nausea, constipation, feeling like I can't breathe, itchy nipples, pain that could be stretching in my lower abdomen - he fell asleep.
To be fair, we were in bed, and it was after midnight. He heard, "I've been able to sleep at night, take naps, AND STILL sleep all night!" before he was out cold, lol! The next morning, I couldn't tell him, but I kept insisting that we HAD to go to the store so I could buy something.
When he finally asked me what was so important, I whispered "A pregnancy test" in his ear so that they boys wouldn't hear. He immediately looked nauseous. I think his aura darkened, lol! He muttered something like "you better not be!"
I went to the store, bought the test, came home, and went to the bathroom. A couple minutes later, I showed the test to my Hubby, and after taking a good look, he blurts out, "Fuck!" I immediately turned around and walked away so that he wouldn't see me grin or hear me laugh, lol! I expected his reaction, and it made me laugh!
After that, we talked about not telling anyone until I was much farther along. The conversation went like this:
Me: "Honey, I think we should keep this a secret for a while."
Hubby: "Yeah, me too."
Me: "Oh really? Why?"
Hubby: "Because I don't want to hear what people are going to say."
Me: "That's exactly why I wanted to keep it a secret too!"
Sad to say, but we know quite a few people who are going to think - but hopefully not say out loud - Oh great! Those are the LAST two people who should be having another baby! I figured that I'd announce it here on my blog first because, ironically, none of those people read my blog anyway. So, in that way, I will be keeping it a secret from them until later. When I have an ultrasound pic that actually looks like a baby... Maybe about 12 weeks or so... That's when I'll make the official announcement :-)
However, like wildfire, I bet they'll hear the rumor spread, lol!
Anyway, so now you all know why I haven't and probably won't be posting quite as often. Don't worry, when the time is right, I'll have tons more stuff to post, I'm sure :-)
Have a happy day!
Wednesday, March 7, 2012
Oopsie Buns/Pancakes
In my earlier post, I talked about cleaning up all the dishes in my kitchen because I found a new recipe I wanted to try. They are called Oopsie buns, and I read about them here. They were originally an Atkins low carb recipe, but they've been tweaked to be GAPS friendly. Even better, I had all the ingredients on hand! It's simple:
6 eggs
6oz cream cheese
Splash lemon juice
Salt
Garlic powder (If you actually read the post I took them from, you'll see I changed the recipe to suit my tastes, lol!)
Separate the whites from the yolks, and the splash of lemon juice to the whites then beat until the whites form stiff peaks - aka meringue! To the yolks - which are in a different bowl, in case you weren't sure what to do with them - add the garlic powder, salt and cream cheese, then beat until smooth. Well, at least mostly smooth. After mixing for nigh on ever, I still had plenty of little cream cheese lumps in the batter, shrugs. Fold the whites into the yolks until the whites are yellow, but don't overdo it. Honestly, mine didn't quite turn yellow. No matter how much I mixed - careful not to overdo it - the top still was more white than yellow.
Once your batter is mixed, plop onto a greased cookie sheet or parchment paper lined cookie sheet. The official directions say bake at 300 degrees for 30 minutes, but in my toaster oven, I had to bake at 350 for about 35 minutes... Even then, I think I could have increased the temp a bit, shrugs, lol!
I got too impatient to wait for the first batch to bake, so I decided to make the rest into pancakes. Now the reason I wanted to try this recipe is because - if you follow the post I linked back to the post she linked, lol - you'll see that this is intended to be used as hamburger buns or other bread OR deserts or anything you can imagine really :-) Therefore, I decided to make pancakes.
I must admit that the pancakes turned out beautifully, except they were a little fragile when turning, but that's probably because I used too much batter per pancake. The first one I made flipped with no problems, and remained whole, but the next 2 broke during flippage... mostly because I was too impatient to wait for them to fully set properly. Have you noticed a theme? lol!
Now that the buns I baked are done, the verdict is... DO NOT FORGET TO GREASE THE COOKIE SHEET! Oops, lol! However, yes, I can totally see how these would make good hamburger buns - or other type of bread. They hold together, and have a nice texture. Plus they taste really yummy!
Sorry I didn't snap a pic, but I was too hungry to remember that :-) The amount I used is considered a double batch, and would have made quite a few buns had I not turned them into pancakes, however, when it comes to pancakes, this amount makes one BIG or two little pancakes for 4 people. Works perfectly IMO :-)
Have a happy day!
6 eggs
6oz cream cheese
Splash lemon juice
Salt
Garlic powder (If you actually read the post I took them from, you'll see I changed the recipe to suit my tastes, lol!)
Separate the whites from the yolks, and the splash of lemon juice to the whites then beat until the whites form stiff peaks - aka meringue! To the yolks - which are in a different bowl, in case you weren't sure what to do with them - add the garlic powder, salt and cream cheese, then beat until smooth. Well, at least mostly smooth. After mixing for nigh on ever, I still had plenty of little cream cheese lumps in the batter, shrugs. Fold the whites into the yolks until the whites are yellow, but don't overdo it. Honestly, mine didn't quite turn yellow. No matter how much I mixed - careful not to overdo it - the top still was more white than yellow.
Once your batter is mixed, plop onto a greased cookie sheet or parchment paper lined cookie sheet. The official directions say bake at 300 degrees for 30 minutes, but in my toaster oven, I had to bake at 350 for about 35 minutes... Even then, I think I could have increased the temp a bit, shrugs, lol!
I got too impatient to wait for the first batch to bake, so I decided to make the rest into pancakes. Now the reason I wanted to try this recipe is because - if you follow the post I linked back to the post she linked, lol - you'll see that this is intended to be used as hamburger buns or other bread OR deserts or anything you can imagine really :-) Therefore, I decided to make pancakes.
I must admit that the pancakes turned out beautifully, except they were a little fragile when turning, but that's probably because I used too much batter per pancake. The first one I made flipped with no problems, and remained whole, but the next 2 broke during flippage... mostly because I was too impatient to wait for them to fully set properly. Have you noticed a theme? lol!
Now that the buns I baked are done, the verdict is... DO NOT FORGET TO GREASE THE COOKIE SHEET! Oops, lol! However, yes, I can totally see how these would make good hamburger buns - or other type of bread. They hold together, and have a nice texture. Plus they taste really yummy!
Sorry I didn't snap a pic, but I was too hungry to remember that :-) The amount I used is considered a double batch, and would have made quite a few buns had I not turned them into pancakes, however, when it comes to pancakes, this amount makes one BIG or two little pancakes for 4 people. Works perfectly IMO :-)
Have a happy day!
Visual Proof!
My Hubby almost refuses to admit that I do dishes. I do them everyday. I have to. For example, if I want to make dinner, I have to wash the pot or pan I need to use, then when it's time to dish up, I have to wash plates or bowls and silverware... even for my hubby. Ask him, I serve his dinner to him unless he made it himself.
By now, it's obvious that if I'm washing dishes at dinnertime, they didn't get washed after their last use. When it comes to plates, bowls, and silverware, we literally have one for everyone. So, there are 4 bowls, 4 plates, 4 forks, etc... This was a decision Hubby and I made when we moved into this house so that we literally could NOT let the dishes build up, but surprisingly, after you add in all the food storage containers, mixing bowls, and glass jars, it still adds up pretty quick, lol!
Anyway, I really do HAVE to do at least some dishes everyday. Also true, Hubby almost never sees this, even if he is home. All he sees is all of the dishes that aren't done. Very often, he does dishes (It's true, and I feel like the luckiest girl in the world!), but he usually only does 3/4ths of what needs to be washed. I am NOT complaining! He did 3/4ths of the dishes after all!
So, he claims that he always does the dishes and I never do them. Today, I found a recipe that I want to try, and so I needed to wash 2 mixing bowls, the mixers, and well, I looked at the full sink and realized that I'd have to clear it out just to get to them. So I decided to just do the dishes.
Let me set the record straight: one of the reasons that I HATE doing dishes is that when I actually fill the sink, I do them ALL. Okay... occasionally I leave the silverware for hubby because for some reason I hate doing them the most. Shrugs.
Then, I also scrub/wipe down all the counters, and wash the mirror above the sink. Today I skipped the mirror. ANYWAY, since Hubby is not home, and won't be back until Friday night, I knew that he would NEVER believe me or admit that I did the dishes. To be honest, by then, it will probably look like it did before I did them, and no one would be able to tell the difference.
THAT is the NUMBER 1 reason I HATE doing the dishes! It's like eating Chinese food... an hour later and you'd never know it happened!
SO... I took pictures! Here is VISUAL PROOF that I actually did the dishes! All of them. ALL OF THEM!!! Even the silverware...
So HA! Take that Hubby! Love you :-)
By now, it's obvious that if I'm washing dishes at dinnertime, they didn't get washed after their last use. When it comes to plates, bowls, and silverware, we literally have one for everyone. So, there are 4 bowls, 4 plates, 4 forks, etc... This was a decision Hubby and I made when we moved into this house so that we literally could NOT let the dishes build up, but surprisingly, after you add in all the food storage containers, mixing bowls, and glass jars, it still adds up pretty quick, lol!
Anyway, I really do HAVE to do at least some dishes everyday. Also true, Hubby almost never sees this, even if he is home. All he sees is all of the dishes that aren't done. Very often, he does dishes (It's true, and I feel like the luckiest girl in the world!), but he usually only does 3/4ths of what needs to be washed. I am NOT complaining! He did 3/4ths of the dishes after all!
So, he claims that he always does the dishes and I never do them. Today, I found a recipe that I want to try, and so I needed to wash 2 mixing bowls, the mixers, and well, I looked at the full sink and realized that I'd have to clear it out just to get to them. So I decided to just do the dishes.
Let me set the record straight: one of the reasons that I HATE doing dishes is that when I actually fill the sink, I do them ALL. Okay... occasionally I leave the silverware for hubby because for some reason I hate doing them the most. Shrugs.
Then, I also scrub/wipe down all the counters, and wash the mirror above the sink. Today I skipped the mirror. ANYWAY, since Hubby is not home, and won't be back until Friday night, I knew that he would NEVER believe me or admit that I did the dishes. To be honest, by then, it will probably look like it did before I did them, and no one would be able to tell the difference.
THAT is the NUMBER 1 reason I HATE doing the dishes! It's like eating Chinese food... an hour later and you'd never know it happened!
SO... I took pictures! Here is VISUAL PROOF that I actually did the dishes! All of them. ALL OF THEM!!! Even the silverware...
So HA! Take that Hubby! Love you :-)
Tuesday, March 6, 2012
My computer effed up!
My computer did something horrible to me recently. I unplugged it - I had a full battery - so that I could bring it into the bathroom with me so that I could listen to music while I took a shower. For some reason, it decided to go haywire and make crazy noises. This was just as I walked into the bathroom, so it wasn't due to excess moisture, but may have been due to overheating.
I have a problem with my computer overheating, and have to have an external fan blowing on it quite often. At this point, it did not feel hot, and I can tell when it feels hot... I have lots of practice.
ANYWAY, after it did that, the only way I could get it to stop was to hold down the power button. Then, when it turned back on, it did a check disk. I think this was a BIG mistake! I watched it say it found about a thousand errors, and then delete them.
When my computer finally booted up, half my programs wouldn't work. Now... had the programs been things like internet explorer and adobe flash player, I probably would have just ignored the problem forever. I'm good at ignoring my problems like that, lol!
INSTEAD, my Firefox didn't work. I purposely installed it a while back because internet explorer just does not work for me. It doesn't load all the thumbnails, the links don't work, and it just frickin' sucks! After trying to uninstall and reinstall - without results - I may have just decided to suffer forever with crappy IE, BUT THEN I discovered that my Microsoft Word program wasn't working either!
GASP! CRY IN HORROR! This is a tragedy of the worst degree! How can I write if my program doesn't work! This called for drastic measures.
I had to research why my programs stopped working, and I learned something very important. Windows OS uses a program called Side by Side. It's a runtime library of sorts that stores the .dll files that are the shared base for a LOT of programs. If the programs can't find a specific .dll, the program can't run, and because there is NOTHING wrong with the program, reinstalling it won't help.
It it also a part of the C++ coding, so MOST of the time, reinstalling the missing C++ codes work to fix the problem. Using the event viewer, I was able to determine that A: It affected a LOT more programs than I had realized! There was about 10 programs all dependent on the same missing code! and B: No matter how many times I downloaded and reinstalled the missing C++ code, it wasn't effin' fixing the problem!!!
FRUSTRATION TO THE EXTREME!!! Visiting all the different sites that came up when I did a search for a solution pretty much led me in circles. They all said the same thing, and the solution just didn't work, so even though I REALLY didn't want to do it, there was just one solution available to me... reinstalling my OS.
I HATED this idea because my computer originally came with Vista, but had a free upgrade to Windows 7 included, so I figured that I would have to wipe the hard drive, install vista, and then upgrade to Windows 7, and upgrading took about 7 hours the first time around. I just couldn't imagin how long it would take to do all of the above.
Cringe in horror... In desperation, I inserted the upgrade disk in the hopes that it could just repair the problems to my OS. No such luck, but it DID tell me that I could just reinstall Windows 7. Therefore, I didn't need to start from scratch, phew!
Now that I've done all that, my programs work again, but I have a LOT of stuff I have to reinstall, and probably redownload. I lost all my bookmarks!!! This really effin' sucks! BUT I can use my Firefox, so I guess it's more good than bad, sigh...
Another thing I lost was the background I'd been using. I posted it to my blog, and find it odd that I didn't have a pic of it in my pictures folder, but when looking through my folder, I found another great pic. :-) Check it out!
And so that's the story of my frustrating couple of days, but at least it's all better now...
EXCEPT that I don't have ANY word programs installed. Therefore, it will probably be some time before I get a chance to write anything new, sigh...
I have a problem with my computer overheating, and have to have an external fan blowing on it quite often. At this point, it did not feel hot, and I can tell when it feels hot... I have lots of practice.
ANYWAY, after it did that, the only way I could get it to stop was to hold down the power button. Then, when it turned back on, it did a check disk. I think this was a BIG mistake! I watched it say it found about a thousand errors, and then delete them.
When my computer finally booted up, half my programs wouldn't work. Now... had the programs been things like internet explorer and adobe flash player, I probably would have just ignored the problem forever. I'm good at ignoring my problems like that, lol!
INSTEAD, my Firefox didn't work. I purposely installed it a while back because internet explorer just does not work for me. It doesn't load all the thumbnails, the links don't work, and it just frickin' sucks! After trying to uninstall and reinstall - without results - I may have just decided to suffer forever with crappy IE, BUT THEN I discovered that my Microsoft Word program wasn't working either!
GASP! CRY IN HORROR! This is a tragedy of the worst degree! How can I write if my program doesn't work! This called for drastic measures.
I had to research why my programs stopped working, and I learned something very important. Windows OS uses a program called Side by Side. It's a runtime library of sorts that stores the .dll files that are the shared base for a LOT of programs. If the programs can't find a specific .dll, the program can't run, and because there is NOTHING wrong with the program, reinstalling it won't help.
It it also a part of the C++ coding, so MOST of the time, reinstalling the missing C++ codes work to fix the problem. Using the event viewer, I was able to determine that A: It affected a LOT more programs than I had realized! There was about 10 programs all dependent on the same missing code! and B: No matter how many times I downloaded and reinstalled the missing C++ code, it wasn't effin' fixing the problem!!!
FRUSTRATION TO THE EXTREME!!! Visiting all the different sites that came up when I did a search for a solution pretty much led me in circles. They all said the same thing, and the solution just didn't work, so even though I REALLY didn't want to do it, there was just one solution available to me... reinstalling my OS.
I HATED this idea because my computer originally came with Vista, but had a free upgrade to Windows 7 included, so I figured that I would have to wipe the hard drive, install vista, and then upgrade to Windows 7, and upgrading took about 7 hours the first time around. I just couldn't imagin how long it would take to do all of the above.
Cringe in horror... In desperation, I inserted the upgrade disk in the hopes that it could just repair the problems to my OS. No such luck, but it DID tell me that I could just reinstall Windows 7. Therefore, I didn't need to start from scratch, phew!
Now that I've done all that, my programs work again, but I have a LOT of stuff I have to reinstall, and probably redownload. I lost all my bookmarks!!! This really effin' sucks! BUT I can use my Firefox, so I guess it's more good than bad, sigh...
Another thing I lost was the background I'd been using. I posted it to my blog, and find it odd that I didn't have a pic of it in my pictures folder, but when looking through my folder, I found another great pic. :-) Check it out!
And so that's the story of my frustrating couple of days, but at least it's all better now...
EXCEPT that I don't have ANY word programs installed. Therefore, it will probably be some time before I get a chance to write anything new, sigh...
Brownies
Gryffin has been begging me for days to make a chocolate cake or cookies or ice cream or something! So, I finally decided to give in. I looked through a book called Cooking with Coconut by Bruce Fife, and found a brownie recipe. They turned out pretty good. My boys certainly loved them, lol! As for me, they tasted good, and had a great texture, but something about them just didn't seem right. I think it's that I'm not really a fan of chocolate.
Gasp! I know! I talk about chocolate a lot, and crave it at least once a month, but I have never really liked it. Though I must admit that ever since I discovered organic dark chocolate made withOUT High Fructose Corn Syrup, WITH real organic evaporated cane juice... AHHHHHH, sigh! Heaven... I can certainly understand why other women find chocolate so addicting, and why they'll spend small fortunes on it :-D
Well, here's the Recipe I used.
Brownies
1/3 cup butter or coconut oil - I used butter
1/2 cup cocoa powder - I recommend Rapunzel Organic cocoa powder
6 eggs
1 cup sugar - I used 1/2 cup sucanat (sugar cane natural) and 1/4 cup maple syrup for a total of 3/4 cup.
1/2 Tsp Salt - I used Redmond's RealSalt, and I didn't measure, so I may have had a bit more, lol
1/2 Tsp Vanilla - I did measure this, but still added a tiny bit more just for the hell of it :-)
1/2 cup Coconut Flour
1 cup optional chopped nuts of your choice.
Heat the butter, mix in the cocoa until it becomes a sauce, and then let cool. (If you were to add the sugar at this point, you'd have fudge!) In a bowl, mix eggs, sugar, salt, and vanilla. At this point, I'd only added the 1/2 cup of sucanat because I wanted to get the whole mix together, and then add more sugar as necessary. To me, anything that calls for a whole cup of sugar is asking for WAY too much!
Stir in the cocoa/butter mix, and then add the coconut flour; whisking, stirring, or beating until there are no lumps. I used my mixers, lol! It was at this point that I tasted the batter and decided that a bit more sugar wouldn't hurt, and then added the 1/4 cup maple syrup. Add nuts if your going to, I didn't have any. Pour into brownie pan, and then bake at 350 for 30-35 minutes. I used my toaster oven, so I had to set the temp to 425 to equal a real oven's 350, lol!
Again, the verdict from my boys is YUMMY! We each ate two pieces right away, another piece for a before bedtime snack, and then finished it off this morning with breakfast, lol!The best part is that I have enough ingredients to make another batch later on in the week so that my hubby can have some when he get home for the weekend :-)
Gasp! I know! I talk about chocolate a lot, and crave it at least once a month, but I have never really liked it. Though I must admit that ever since I discovered organic dark chocolate made withOUT High Fructose Corn Syrup, WITH real organic evaporated cane juice... AHHHHHH, sigh! Heaven... I can certainly understand why other women find chocolate so addicting, and why they'll spend small fortunes on it :-D
Well, here's the Recipe I used.
Brownies
1/3 cup butter or coconut oil - I used butter
1/2 cup cocoa powder - I recommend Rapunzel Organic cocoa powder
6 eggs
1 cup sugar - I used 1/2 cup sucanat (sugar cane natural) and 1/4 cup maple syrup for a total of 3/4 cup.
1/2 Tsp Salt - I used Redmond's RealSalt, and I didn't measure, so I may have had a bit more, lol
1/2 Tsp Vanilla - I did measure this, but still added a tiny bit more just for the hell of it :-)
1/2 cup Coconut Flour
1 cup optional chopped nuts of your choice.
Heat the butter, mix in the cocoa until it becomes a sauce, and then let cool. (If you were to add the sugar at this point, you'd have fudge!) In a bowl, mix eggs, sugar, salt, and vanilla. At this point, I'd only added the 1/2 cup of sucanat because I wanted to get the whole mix together, and then add more sugar as necessary. To me, anything that calls for a whole cup of sugar is asking for WAY too much!
Stir in the cocoa/butter mix, and then add the coconut flour; whisking, stirring, or beating until there are no lumps. I used my mixers, lol! It was at this point that I tasted the batter and decided that a bit more sugar wouldn't hurt, and then added the 1/4 cup maple syrup. Add nuts if your going to, I didn't have any. Pour into brownie pan, and then bake at 350 for 30-35 minutes. I used my toaster oven, so I had to set the temp to 425 to equal a real oven's 350, lol!
Again, the verdict from my boys is YUMMY! We each ate two pieces right away, another piece for a before bedtime snack, and then finished it off this morning with breakfast, lol!The best part is that I have enough ingredients to make another batch later on in the week so that my hubby can have some when he get home for the weekend :-)
Thursday, March 1, 2012
Cheri - Part 12
Chapter
12
Two
days after Chèri’s wedding, she decided that it was high time she
went to visit a few of her friends. She kissed Reiki before he left
to do paperwork in his office, and smiled as she realized that he
hadn’t yet thought to ask her for her help. She imagined that
helping him would be very similar to her duties as Regional Director.
She
decided to wear a houmongi that was plain but feminine. It was suited
to middle class women who had to be practical with what they wore,
but also liked to look pretty. She then chose a cute piece of fabric
so that she could carry her son on her back as she walked.
“Come
on Ando,” she beckoned him. To both his joy and his dismay, he was
still her personal bodyguard.
“Yes
my Lady – er… Imperial Majesty…” he murmured awkwardly.
She
grabbed hold of the collar of his wafuku, and forced him to look her
in the eye. “I prefer
Chèri, but if you insist on remaining formal, call me Lady Chèri or
my Lady!”
“Yes…
my Lady…” he conceded reluctantly.
Chèri
suppressed a sigh. I’ll
take what I can get!
She led him to Nortown.
Ando
was dressed as an Imperial Guard should be, and walked with one hand
on his sword. He had only been to Nortown twice, and hadn’t ever
gotten a chance to look around. He was nervous knowing that he was
the only
person in charge of the First Queen and Imperial Heir’s safety, but
then he remembered how much the residents loved Chèri.
“Lady
Chèri!” A boy around ten exclaimed in astonishment. “I thought
we’d never see you again!” He referred to the fact that she had
left to be a Regional Director. While it was well known that the
Emperor had married Shurin Ruby, most of the children did not realize
that Lady Chèri is
Shurin Ruby.
Chèri
hugged the boy tight when he threw his arms around her. “Oh, I
missed you too!”
“Are
you coming back to teach at the temple?” He asked.
“No.
Sadly, I don’t have time,” Chèri answered him, a bit depressed
that it was true.
Several
people witnessed the touching reunion, but obviously wondered if it
was alright to speak to the Lady now that she was married to the
Emperor. Chèri released the boy, and then called out greetings to
others as she walked along. People got inexplicably excited, and word
of her return spread.
She
continued walking until she reached a certain destination. It was a
bit early for lunch, but luckily, the person she wanted to see was
already sitting at his usual table. She approached him, and then gave
him a respectful bow.
“Chèri!”
Bo exclaimed, twirling her around lightly before kissing her. He set
her on her feet, and then turned red. “I mean my Lady! I mean
Imperial Majesty!”
“Bo,”
Chèri greeted with a warm smile. “I was hoping to talk to you. Do
you mind if I join you for lunch?”
“Of
course!” Bo answered, gesturing for Chèri to take a seat across
from him. She unfastened the carrier, and swung her baby around to
sit in her lap. He was always remarkably quiet, and she often assumed
he was asleep when he was simply watching everything around him.
“Is
that the Prince?” Bo asked reverently, glancing at Ando as he also
sat at the table – next to Chèri.
“Yes,”
Chèri confirmed.
“He’s
adorable,” Bo smiled, wiggling his fingers to amuse the baby.
Chèri
waved to the food vendor to signal that she wanted an order of his
daily special. He had never known her identity, so he treated her
like he always did, like a customer. One that was a guest of his most
important customer. He quickly brought her and Ando plates of food.
After
they were served, Chèri decided to get down to business. “Have you
happened to hear any rumors or whispers about someone wanting to kill
me?”
Bo
stroked his small well-groomed beard to stall as he thought. “Nothing
official… It’s certainly not
an approved crime, but… I’ve heard whispers. Someone wants to
hire an assassin to sneak into the Inner Palace and take care of a
certain problem.”
“Any
idea why? I’m no longer a threat; I can’t get any higher in
rank!” Chèri stated.
Bo
shrugged. “I have no idea why. However, I may have a suspicion.”
Chèri
smiled, and took one of his hands in hers. “Tell me.”
“You’ve
slowly made things better. In the process, I think you’ve thwarted
someone’s plans to ruin the entire Empire. I think whoever is
behind this wanted
the Emperor to stay insecure and afraid to do his job. I think he or
they wanted the Empire to devolve to the point that people would lose
all faith in the Emperor until they called for him to be executed.
However… he has been a pretty good Emperor, and more importantly,
he made it so that you
could
become an official…”
“And
then I became Regional Director, and ousted the bringer of chaos…”
Chèri murmured.
“Before
even that, you uncovered and reported a couple of serious crimes,”
Bo pointed out. “They were never connected, but I think the same
someone is behind them.”
“That
makes sense…” Chèri mused. She finished eating her food, and
handed baby Reiki to Ando. “Thank you! If you happen to hear
anything important, will you send a message to me at my father’s?”
She stood, and so both Bo and Ando stood as well.
Bo
and Chèri held hands. “Certainly, my Lady.” He kissed her on the
cheek causing her to giggle softly.
“Ahem,”
Ando cleared his throat obviously on purpose in a significant way.
“Oh
Ando!” Chèri laughed. “You have nothing to worry about; his
boyfriend would kill
him if he ever got serious about me!”
Bo
sighed as if annoyed by an over-protective father. “Too true… the
man is simply far too jealous for my own good!”
Chèri
laughed again. “Better jealous than he not care at all!”
Bo
pushed her nose lightly. “True, now go on, before I give your
bodyguard something to really worry about!”
Chèri
nodded, hugged him, and then turned around so that Ando could help
her get Reiki in the carrier and onto her back. She waved as they
walked away. The moment Ando was certain that Bo could no longer hear
them, he blurted out what was on his mind.
“You
are married now, my Lady! It’s not right to flirt with and kiss
other men!”
Chèri
playfully nudged Ando with her shoulder. “I won’t tell my husband
if you won’t!” She laughed. “No seriously, Reiki knows of my
friendship with Bo, and he also knows that I get a bit flirty with
him from time to time.”
“Even
so, I must stress that you are the First Queen. You simply cannot
hug or kiss anyone
other than your husband,” Ando insisted.
“Sorry,
but I don’t agree,” Chèri replied with a shrug.
“People
will question your fidelity. They will suggest that perhaps the
Emperor really isn’t the father of your child. They –”
Chèri
cut him off. “Perhaps you are right, but I cannot change who I am
just to avoid people who might think badly of me. If they think I am
unfaithful to my husband because I kiss a friend, then they are going
to think I am unfaithful to him no matter what I do. The only one who
needs to believe me is Reiki.”
Ando
sighed, but didn’t say anything.
Chèri
brought them to Kiki’s. Kiki actually cried when she saw Chèri.
“Oh
how I’ve missed you!” It was early enough in the day that all the
girls were still asleep, and none of the patrons were around. Kiki
took advantage of this by greeting Chèri with a long and thorough
kiss. Ando shifted his feet side to side, and suppressed an
aggravated sigh.
Chèri
blushed when it was over. “No one ever kisses me quite like you
do.”
“Of
course not!” Kiki laughed. “I am the best! But enough about me;
you married the Emperor!” She bounced excitedly on her feet.
Chèri
grinned. “I know! It’s still so strange to me!”
“Is
this the famous little Prince that utterly surprised his daddy?”
Kiki asked, and Chèri allowed her to remove the baby from the
carrier. “Oh! Isn’t he just the cutest little thing!”
They
took turns playing with him for about 10 minutes, and then he started
to fuss. Chèri asked Kiki to bring them to her office so that she
could feed him.
“Sure,
and when you’re done, I wonder if you would go for a walk with me?”
Kiki asked.
“I’d
love to,” Chèri answered.
Kiki’s
walk turned out to lead Chèri into a surprise party. The residents
of Nortown still loved her, and felt as if her marriage to the
Emperor was a cause for them to celebrate… again! (They had done so
the other day after the wedding. The entire Imperial city had.) She
danced, sang, and ate the food they all contributed to the party for
hours. She also took frequent breaks to feed her son, doing so in the
privacy of a makeshift tent.
“Does
anyone know where my wife is?” Reiki asked as the sun got close to
setting. Ran shrugged, but Ko smiled.
“She’s
probably visiting my uncle.”
Reiki
looked at his clothes. They – along with his crown – loudly
announced for all to hear that he was the Emperor, but he sighed and
decided not to change. He figured that if he took the time to do so,
Chèri would make and then eat dinner with her father before he had a
chance to get there.
“Let’s
go,” Reiki ordered his two bodyguards, and they nodded in
agreement. Halfway to Sho’s house, Ran stopped them, and looked
around cautiously.
“Something’s
wrong… It’s too quiet…” he stated, referring to the fact that
no one seemed to be in town. Ko nodded in agreement. Suddenly, there
was a roaring cheer from somewhere in the distance.
“You
want to check it out?” Ko wondered.
“We
probably should,” Reiki murmured.
Five
minutes later, they walked up behind a large crowd. They were all
singing a lively song accompanied by music, and Chèri was once again
on a table dancing lightly as she led them through the chorus. She
held her baby as if she was dancing with him. He was sound asleep
once more.
When
the song ended, the crowd cheered, and chanted her name to encourage
her to sing another. A couple of people near the back noticed the
Emperor standing behind them, and gasped. They tugged on the sleeves
of their neighbors, and pointed this out. Within moments, everyone
was sitting on their feet bowing deeply to the Emperor.
This
was the first time that he had openly walked in public as the
Emperor, so he was a bit taken aback that everyone bowed to him when
they were knowingly partying with the First Queen.
“I’m
sorry to interrupt, but I was hoping to have dinner with my wife,”
he apologized.
“Reiki!”
Chèri gasped happily. Ando helped her down off the table, and then
she handed him her baby so that she could rush to her beloved and
wrap her arms around him. He returned her hug, looking at her as if
she were the only woman in the whole world. They promptly forgot they
were in public, and kissed.
The
crowd gasped softly. They hadn’t really formed a solid opinion of
the Emperor yet, but his obvious love for their
Lady Chèri softened many a heart in his favor. The romanticness of
the situation made most of the women – especially the younger ones
– squeal happily. Kissing was generally not done in public, so each
public kiss was like a scene from a popular new play.
Chèri
remembered she was in front of an audience, and ended the kiss with a
blush.
“Thank
you for the wonderful party!” She gushed, giving everyone a
respectful bow. “But it’s time for me to go now. Have a pleasant
evening!”
Everyone
was still sitting on their feet, but they grinned at her, clapping
and cheering, “Congratulations Lady Chèri!”
Reiki
tucked Chèri’s arm through his, and led her home, followed by Ran,
Ko, and Ando, who was still carrying the baby. She blushed a little
over the implication of her arm tucked into his, but didn’t
protest.
“The
people love you,” Reiki murmured proudly.
Chèri
shrugged. “They are my neighbors and friends. They know that I am
always thinking of ways to make their lives better.”
㆝㆝㆝㆝㆝㆝㆝
“But
why? We’ve only been married a month!” Reiki protested.
“I
have to go back,” Chèri insisted. “What good am I as a Regional
Director if I don’t personally govern my people? I gave my duties
to someone else once already, and that person nearly ruined
everything!”
“Then
let me assign someone else who will take good care of the region!”
Reiki insisted.
“What?!
Why would you even suggest such a thing?!” Chèri demanded. “You
gave that position to me, and so long as I do a good job and don’t
wish to resign, you have no reason to force me to do so!”
“I
want you by my side! Is that so wrong?” Reiki asked, panting from
the emotions he simply could not contain.
“Reiki
please?” Chèri begged. “I promise I won’t be gone nearly so
long. I just want to go see that things are proceeding according to
my plan, stay long enough to help out, and then I’ll come home.”
“But
you’re the First Queen now! Someone’s been after you for a long
time, and I’m afraid that they’ll send assassins to follow you if
you leave the palace,” Reiki confessed.
“That’s
a chance I’ll have to take, and besides…” Chèri paused a
moment to choose her words carefully. “If they do, maybe you’ll
finally be able to figure out who’s behind it. I honestly believe
whoever it is sent someone to incite the people of Topaz Region
against me.”
“All
the more reason for you to stay!” Reiki nearly shouted.
Chèri
sighed in momentary defeat, and walked out of their room. I
simply have to prove to him that it’s for the best if I do my job
when I have to.
Chèri mentally affirmed. She marched straight to the Outer Palace,
and decided to take a good look at everything that had happened since
she first left for Topaz Region.
She
stopped by the Palace kitchen, pulled an apron on over her houmongi –
which was again something that would normally be worn by the
upper-middle class women, Chèri’s way of compromising – and
helped make a large batch of sweet buns. The kitchen staff was now
used to the First Queen invading their territory, and managed to do
their job without fussing over her.
Chèri
chatted and helped out as needed while she waited for her buns to
bake. As they were cooling, she made a pot of tea, and placed all the
goodies in a basket. A few minutes later, she was bowing respectfully
to the Minister of Archives.
“Would
you like a sweet bun?” She asked.
“Official
Ruby – I mean Imperial Majesty!” The Minister exclaimed in
surprise. He was obviously torn between treating her like he always
did, and diving to the floor to pay her the proper respect due to the
First Queen. “What brings you here?”
“I
just want to look through the archives for a while,” Chèri
informed him with a smile, handing him a sweet bun, and then filling
his cup with some tea.
He
looked relieved that she wasn’t offended by his lack of obeisance,
took a bite, and then moaned softly in appreciation. “I’ve missed
your cooking!”
Chèri
laughed.
“Anything
in particular you are looking for?” He asked.
“No
sir, I just want to read what I can,” Chèri informed him.
“Very
well,” he granted, fully aware that he couldn’t really say no to
her.
She
grinned at him. “Thank you!” She turned to enter the actual
archive area, and stopped short. Two girls were sitting on their
feet, bowing to her as respectfully as possible.
“Imperial
Majesty!”
Chèri
smiled as she realized that they both wore the feminized uniform of
Officials. “Please, there’s no need for that. Would you like a
sweet bun?”
They
looked up at her, and she could see that both were probably 18 or 19
years old. Considering that Chèri was only going on 20 in a couple
of months, she felt connected to them.
They
accepted the sweet buns with a smile. “May we ask for your advice?”
Chèri
looked around briefly, confirming her suspicion that the Minister and
the 6 other Officials – all male – were watching them curiously.
“Ask me anything.”
“You
had only been an Official about a year when you were promoted to
Regional Director. We were both hired permanently by the Department
of Archives during our initial trial period, and there’s no sign
that we’ll be promoted anytime soon. We’re not complaining, but…”
The slightly older one faltered.
The
younger one finished for her. “We were wondering if you could tell
us how to…”
Chèri
didn’t wait for her to finish her thought. “I didn’t know that
there were other female Officials already! Are there others?”
“No,
Imperial Majesty.”
Chèri
shrugged. “Well, I’m sorry, but I don’t know what to tell you.
Someone
pretty high up threatened to fire any Minister that hired me into his
department, so the fact that you’ve been permanently hired means
you’re already doing better than I was. I had to figure out what to
do with my time, and just so happened to come across a few mysteries
that needed solving.”
Chèri
studied the Minister of Archives intently for a moment. He realized
that she was doing this, and instantly started sorting through papers
on his desk to appear busy.
“It
seems to me that the same someone
has changed tactics by having you two hired into the relatively
unimportant Department of Archives. I suspect that you’ll probably
be here for a long time. You have two choices… Either accept that
you have a job as an Official and can always look for opportunities
to advance, or give up and quit. Personally, I’d continue on,”
Chèri encouraged them.
“Of
course,” they murmured in agreement. They seemed disappointed that
Chèri didn’t impart some big secret to success.
Chèri
took a moment to pass out sweet buns, and pour tea for everyone until
the pot was empty. She penetrated the two women with impishly
sparkling eyes; they returned her gaze curiously. “Oh! And it never
hurts to bring some food and a pot of tea!”
After
that bit of obscure wisdom, she got busy looking through the
archives, lightly reorganizing the files as necessary. She could see
how things had improved for the Empire over the last couple of years,
but she could also see where things stagnated. Collecting a handful
of the most important reports, she returned to the Minister.
She’d
been in the archives just long enough that the Minister had almost
forgotten she was there. She smiled at him, and handed him another
sweet bun.
“May
I borrow these?” Chèri asked.
“I
suppose,” the Minister grumbled after a moment’s thought.
“It’s
too bad that I don’t have any time to help out around here,”
Chèri stated with a grin. “The archive is positively dusty again!
Has anyone
dusted since I last did?”
The
look on this Minister’s face plainly stated that he was not
entirely sure himself when the last time the place received a
thorough cleaning. Chèri waved, then left so that she could visit a
few other departments. She made a new pot of tea, and then handed out
tea and buns to Ministers and Officials until she ran out.
She
made notes as needed, then used the office provided for Officials on
reserve status to look through her research material, and come up
with a plan. She ended up falling asleep close to midnight.
Meanwhile,
Reiki was pacing their room nearly frantically. He had sent Ran, Ko,
and Ando out to find her a couple of hours ago. They’d split up –
Ran and Ko searching Nortown while Ando searched the Palace. Ando
found her about a half an hour after she’d fallen asleep.
“Always
so troublesome, my Lady,” he murmured, a smile on his lips as he
shook his head. He’d suspected that she hadn’t left the palace
since she would have brought him with if she had. He gathered up
everything she had spread out on the table, packed it in her now
empty basket, and then carried her and the basket to her worried
husband.
“Thank
the Gods you found her!” Reiki cried out in relief. “I was afraid
that she’d run away after our argument this morning.”
Ando
set her on the bed, and then handed her basket to the Emperor. “My
Lady never runs away,” he replied respectfully, and then excused
himself.
Reiki
was tempted to look through the basket, but decided that he would
rather not risk Chèri getting mad at him for doing so. He would
patiently wait until she told him what she was doing.
The
next morning, he had to get up early so that he could get dressed to
attend his weekly council meeting. He kissed her softly before he
left, and then took a moment to check on their son. The wet nurse
smiled at him as she rocked the baby back to sleep.
When
Chèri woke up, she felt like she was on fire with purpose once more.
She kissed her sleeping son, and then called for a couple attendants
to come dress her up in full First Queen regalia.
A
quick trip to the kitchen allowed her to pick up a basket full of
sliced banana bread that she’d made previously accompanied by a
full crock of butter. She also made and then carefully nestled into
the basket two pots of tea. Finally ready – making doubly sure that
she had the plan she’d worked so hard on – she exited the
kitchen.
Though
she was highly tempted to stride into the meeting room with determine
purpose, she forced herself to enter calmly; quietly. No one noticed
her at first because they hadn’t expected anyone else to stealthily
enter the room via the Emperor’s private entrance. She set the
basket down, and stood off to the side listening to the discussion in
silence for a few moments. As she suspected, there was more arguing
over money than anything else.
She
almost walked back out, because honestly, her plan didn’t need
their approval… at least not at first.
Ironically,
it was her uncle that noticed her first. He stared at her as if he
wasn’t quite sure he could believe his eyes. “Chèri…?” he
murmured.
Reiki
heard him, and looked in the direction of his gaze. He promptly
stood, but forced himself not to fawn over her. “Do you need
something?”
The
rest of the Ministers fell silent. Chèri smiled, and then –
placing her right fist in her left – bowed to her husband. “I
merely wondered if I may have a few moments to speak.”
Reiki
gave this some serious thought. His reply really should depend on
what she wanted to talk about, and if it was important enough to
discuss during an official council meeting, it was supposed to be
placed on the list of things to discuss. If he simply gave in to her
request, it might set a bad precedent.
“Imperial
Majesty, if I may?” His Grand Advisor politely offered a
suggestion. “I think it would be good for us to take a small break
anyway, so why not let the First Queen have her say?”
Reiki
nodded. “Very well,” he agreed, and then returned his attention
to his wife. “What did you want to talk about?”
Chèri
grinned brightly, and picked up her basket. Starting with Reiki, she
handed out slices of banana bread buttering each as she did so. She
also poured tea, and smiled as the ministers all profusely
complimented on her excellent cooking. Once she deemed everyone to be
in a relatively good mood, she stood before them, next to where her
husband was sitting in his throne like chair.
“Thank
you for letting me have a few moments of your time,” she began. “I
took some time yesterday to research how prepared we are in the event
of another food shortage. Thankfully, the Gods have blessed us with
an abundance of crops for the last couple of years – for the most
part – but history has proven that that could easily change at any
time. According to the records. The palace could easily withstand up
to two years of near famine conditions, but the rest of the Empire is
rather left on its own.
“Each
region is responsible for ensuring that there’ll be enough food to
go around in the event of an emergency, so I don’t know how much
they’ve set aside. However, if they need aid, they request it from
the palace. Therefore, I truly believe that we should put more effort
into being ready to help.
“Also,
there are plenty of temples throughout the Empire that feed those who
for whatever reason cannot afford to feed themselves. I think the
Empire has a responsibility to provide the temples with food, because
they never have enough for all the mouths that need filling.
“Therefore,
I propose that we implement a program – much like the one I have
created in the Topaz Region – to encourage the people of the
Imperial City come harvest time to bring their extras to the temples.
Fruit trees and even plants in a garden often produce far more than a
family can use, and the extra would otherwise go to waste. But
if we can preserve those extras, we can store them for emergencies,”
Chèri finished outlining her proposal, handing the much more
detailed version to her husband for official review.
The
ministers contemplated her suggestion in silence for a moment. Just
when Chèri began to fear they would reject her outright, the
Minister of Finance spoke up.
“As
I understand you, you simply want to ask the residents to bring their
extras to the temples for preservation. You are not
asking for money?” He questioned.
“That’s
correct,” Chèri confirmed. “There will be no need for money,
though it might not be a bad idea to come up with some sort of reward
for complying. I also plan to save the seeds from the extras so that
we can plant trees wherever there’s enough room.”
Her
experience from the Topaz Region had taught her that because the vast
majority of the Empire was blessed with an overabundance of bountiful
crops – and no winter to survive – no one gave much thought to
preserving food for times of need. The memories were vague now, but
she still recalled watching the people of the foreign country put a
lot of time and effort into storing enough food to last the winter.
The
Minister of Finance smiled. “If you’re not asking for money, then
I have no problems with your plan.”
Her
uncle, the Minister of Civil Affairs, nodded in agreement. “I think
it’s a brilliant plan.”
Several
other Ministers murmured softly in agreement. Chèri kept a close eye
on the three Great Advisors and the Grand Advisor. She was positive
that one of them was behind the discrimination against her, and was
hoping to determine which one it was by the expression on his face.
Unfortunately, they all remained calm. Not one of their faces showed
the slightest hint of malevolence. She shuddered as she realized that
one of them wanted her permanently out of his way, yet was so good at
hiding his true nature that she couldn’t sense his intentions.
Rather
sooner than she expected, everyone was in agreement, they all turned
to the Emperor to make the final decision. He was busy reading her
plan. When he realized that the room was silent with expectation, he
looked up.
“Yes…
I also think this plan has merit. Shall I assign this to an
Official?” He inquired. Generally, whenever any new plan was
proposed, it was assigned to someone who could devote their full
attention to implementing it.
“No,”
Chèri answered firmly. She took a deep breath to prepare herself for
the dirty trick she was about to perform. “I think I will have more
than enough time to spread the word around the Imperial City before I
leave to inspect the progress in the Topaz Region. Then, I would
naturally return in time to see the project carried out.”
She
smiled at Reiki as if she hadn’t just publicly forced his hand to
let her leave despite his adamant refusal. She saw anger flash in his
eyes for a moment before he pushed it aside.
“Very
well. Feel free to recruit any of the reserve Officials or the new
ones who have not yet been permanently hired into a department to
help you as necessary,” he granted, sounding as if he was being
generous, but there really wasn’t more than a handful of Officials
that fit the description. Therefore, he was subtly getting back at
her.
“Thank
you,” she bowed to him gratefully, and then bowed to the Ministers.
“Thank you all so much for indulging me in this… Anyone want more
banana bread?”
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Chèri
wisely disappeared into Nortown before her husband finished his
meeting. She brought Ando – of course – and her son with her.
Thankfully, she’d had enough time to change out of her outrageously
expensive outfit before leaving.
Her
first stop was the market so that she could buy as much food as
possible for a gold coin. The vendors all tossed in just a little bit
extra to show their appreciation that the First Queen gifted them
with her patronage. She rolled her eyes, but accepted their
generosity gracefully.
A
few temple children happened to be running around with nothing to do,
so she volunteered them to carry her purchases. Soon, they were in
the temple’s kitchen, Chèri cooking enough to feed a small army.
She had baby Reiki in a carrier on her back at first, but Ando
decided that it might be better if he held the baby while she worked.
He let people look at and play with the tiny Prince, but did not let
go of him for one second.
“What
brings you here today, Imperial Majesty?” The High Priest in charge
of the temple asked curiously, happy to see her.
“I
have some important business to take care of,” Chèri informed him,
and then explained her plan. “Oh! And please call me Lady Chèri.
Imperial Majesty is much too stuffy.”
The
High priest smiled at the irony, but complied. “Of course, Lady
Chèri. Let me ask a few of the Priestesses to help you.”
After
the food was ready, served, and eaten, Chèri explained her plan to
the Priestesses. They all grew excited, and eagerly offered to help
her. The first thing they needed to do was spread the word around
Nortown. Over the next couple of days, they’d visit the temples in
the other parts of the Imperial City, and then talk to as many
citizens as they possibly could.
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Chèri
dismissed Ando before entering the room she shared with Reiki. Their
son was already asleep for the night, and honestly, Chèri was
exhausted enough that she wished she could go right to bed herself.
She handed the baby to his wet nurse, and softly asked her to put him
to bed.
Once
they were alone, she braced herself for her husband’s anger. Reiki
stared at her in silence for a long time unable to decide how to
handle the situation.
“I’m
sorry…” Chèri murmured. She was being sincere, and yet knew that
she would do it again if she had to.
Reiki
narrowed his eyes, intuitively hearing what she’d left unsaid. “I
have never denied you anything that you want. Time and time again, I
have pushed my own desires to the side so that you could do whatever
you felt like you had to. I don’t know why I thought things would
be different now…”
He
started pacing in agitation. “In any case, why
did you feel the need to push me like that? Why couldn’t you keep
the matter between us until we’d had a chance to talk about it some
more?”
“I
know I did something I shouldn’t have, but I earned
the position of Regional Director. I worked hard to govern the
people, and I was very clear that I wanted to keep my job. I honestly
felt like you would take it away from me if I didn’t do something
drastic. I couldn’t take that chance…” Chèri whispered the
last bit of her explanation, looking at the floor in an attempt to
hide her guilt.
“Fine.
Do whatever you want,” Reiki stated in a way that made it clear
that he was still angry, but didn’t want to escalate their
argument. No one had ever
made him want to shout as much as he wanted to shout at her right
now.
He
was already undressed except for a plain white wafuku, so he simply
went to bed. He faced away from her, and firmly resolved not to speak
to her no matter what she said. Chèri understood this, and quietly
got undressed. She blew out all the candles until the room was
plunged in darkness.
Crawling
into bed, she placed one hand on his shoulder so that she could kiss
his cheek. “I really am sorry,” she whispered. “I love you.”
She settled herself, pulling the covers over her. “Good night.”
Reiki
was tempted to gruffly return the phrase, but stuck to his resolve
not to speak to her.
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All
too soon – in Reiki’s opinion – the groundwork for Chèri’s
plan was laid, and she was able to leave for the Topaz Region. They
still hadn’t quite made up from their argument, and neither really
knew what to do. Chèri felt she could only apologize so many times,
and Reiki felt that he couldn’t just forgive her because doing so
would only encourage her to use the same tactic every time she wanted
her way.
In
fact, the more he thought about the situation, the angrier he got.
How
dare she do that to me! She didn’t even give me a chance to see
things from her point of view!
On
the other hand, it nearly made him physically sick to think that she
was about to leave while things were so bad between them. The night
before she was supposed to leave, he lay in bed stewing; unable to
sleep. Judging by the way she was breathing, Chèri wasn’t asleep
yet either.
He
rolled over abruptly, and grasped her chin with the thumb and
forefinger of his right hand. “Don’t misunderstand. I’m angry,
and I can’t forgive you, but I will be angrier at myself if I let
you leave tomorrow without making love to you at least once more.”
He
kissed her, and she began to sob unexpectedly.
“I’m
so
glad! I was afraid that I’d pushed you away for good!” She cried,
clinging to him.
“I
have no role models to emulate, but I’m told that a solid marriage
is built on compromise,” Reiki informed her. “It would be stupid
of us to let one little argument destroy our marriage for good.”
Chèri
nodded, but didn’t want to talk about it anymore. She kissed him,
guiding his left hand to her breast. Reiki mentally agreed to
temporarily lock away his anger, and just concentrate on the moment.
After one more greedy kiss, he moved his mouth to her nipple.
Chèri
moaned as he drank from her. It was strange that his mouth felt so
good. When her son nursed, it felt natural and definitely not sexual,
but now… She shivered from the intensity of the pleasure.
He
shifted abruptly, and surprised her by kissing her while his mouth
was still full of her milk. She’d never even thought of tasting it
before, but now that she was, she loved how sweet and creamy it was.
“If
I had my way, this is the only thing I’d ever drink,” Reiki told
her as he kissed her neck.
“Mmm,”
Chèri murmured, wondering if that was possible. Surely even the most
abundantly productive mother dried up eventually.
Chèri
sighed and wrapped her arms around Reiki’s neck as he entered her.
Times like this made her wish that she could just settle down and be
the obedient little wife that he wanted. She honestly loved him, so
why wasn’t that enough for her?
They
cried out in unison a while later, not caring if the entire Inner
Palace heard them. Chèri held her husband tight, and felt him drift
off to sleep. He seemed much more relaxed and at peace than he had
earlier.
She
stroked him lightly with one hand, her mind wandering. She would
arrive in Topaz City just in time for the spring planting. It would
be thoroughly satisfying to watch and help her citizens plant more
apple trees. The merchant guild reported that the apple jam and
butter was very popular, and they would welcome the day when the new
trees enhanced the current production.
By
now, even some of the first aged cheeses from Honto’s ranch would
be ready. She couldn’t wait to taste some! She was so incredibly
excited.
The
only bad thing was the possible threat of assassination. Under such
conditions, there was no way she could bring her son with her.
Especially not after the extreme lengths she had gone to to get him
to the palace safely. She was certain that he would be well protected
here… but even so, it hurt to know that she would be leaving him
behind.
She
would only be gone about 3 to 4 months, but even so, by the time she
returned, he would be a different baby! He would definitely know how
to crawl and might even know how to walk. He’s 5 months old now…
Hopefully they would still recognize each other when returned.
In
the morning, she nursed him for probably the last time – her milk
would likely dry up long before she returned – and cuddled with him
much longer than she’d planned. Reiki watched her, obviously hoping
that she’d change her mind.
She
looked up at him, and smiled. “Please take good care of him while
I’m gone. I can’t help but worry…”
Reiki
bit his tongue to stop from blurting out, “Please don’t go!” He
knew that she would leave no matter how much he begged, and he didn’t
want to appear desperate… even though he was.
Chèri
handed him their son, and then hugged him. “Thank you.”
He
refused to let her go for several long moments, but then she pushed
him away and he didn’t resist because he was afraid of dropping
their baby.
Chèri
kissed baby Reiki – who was smiling at her happily – and wiggled
his hand playfully. “You take care of your daddy, little man. Don’t
let him work too much, and make sure to play with him whenever you
can.”
Reiki
was too emotional to speak, so he watched in silence as his wife left
their room – which was actually a small building. A few minutes
later, Chèri joined the entourage that was waiting for her so that
they could leave.
Ando
stood in front of the two guards they’d brought with them from
Topaz, along with two new guards assigned to them by Reiki. The
Emperor feared that the danger to her would vastly increase now that
she was the First Queen, and would have sent an entire company of
soldiers with her, but she adamantly refused. More guards would not
make her safer than just a few carefully chosen guards. He
reluctantly agreed, and sent her two of his best men.
The
last person in the entourage was a new official. He was one of the
few that just could not fit into any of the departments, and was just
about to be placed on reserve status when she came across him. He was
one of the older boys she used to teach at the temple, so she knew he
was a hard worker even if he was a bit shy and awkward by nature.
“Are
we ready?” She asked.
“Yes,
my Lady,” Ando replied. She’d packed yesterday, so her things
were already on the horse, but she had forgotten something, and
handed it to Ando now.
“I
was wondering why you weren’t taking this,” Ando replied, tying
the box holding her fiddle to the horse.
Chèri
took a moment to pet and kiss her two horses, the same ones her uncle
had given her that had carried her back and forth several times, not
to mention all over Topaz Region. The rest of her party was mounted
and waiting for her. The new guards shook their heads and frowned at
her undignified behavior.
Ando
set her on their horse, and then climbed up behind her. She was about
to give the order to leave when she sensed something. She looked
around, and found Reiki holding their son about a hundred feet from
her. He waved, then used his hand to make the baby wave too.
Smiling
as if she had just been granted her dearest wish, she called out,
“Goodbye! I’ll miss you and be back as soon as I possibly can. I
love you!”
Reiki
turned his head slightly to hide a light blush that she shouted that
out in public so easily. He waved again, and called out, “Have a
safe trip!”
They
set out; traveling in silence as they carefully guided their horses
through Nortown. Chèri was so absorbed in her thoughts that she
almost didn’t hear the new Official murmur, “Madam Kiki?”
Chèri
looked up to find 3 people waiting for her at the gate leading out of
the city. “Kiki!” She urged Ando to speed their horse up for a
moment before coming to a complete stop. She jumped off the horse,
and into Kiki’s arms.
Kiki
wasted no time in kissing Chèri like only she could. Ando was used
to seeing this, though he still grumbled a bit, but the rest of their
entourage was gaping at her in shock.
Eventually,
the kiss ended, and Kiki couldn’t stop herself from crying as she
handed Chèri a gorgeous silk flower. “I know that you seldom have
any regard for your appearance, so I’m giving you this flower to
wear in your hair as a reminder that you are
a woman, and so beautiful.”
Chèri
smiled at her friend a bit sadly, honestly touched by her concern.
Kiki tucked the flower into Chèri’s functional bun, and made sure
that it wouldn’t fall out.
Next,
Chèri turned to one of Kiki’s companions. “Bo!” She greeted,
giving him a hug. He squeezed her tight, lifting her completely off
her feet for a moment before setting her down. He kissed her, but it
lasted only a moment.
“I’m
so worried that you’ll have a bad trip,” he informed her. “So,
I want to send this man with you. He’s trustworthy, and handy to
have around.”
Bo
then whispered in her ear. “Plus, if you’ll let him, I want him
to take over as the boss of all crime in Topaz Region. He’s smart,
and knows when not to approve a crime. He’s also strong and
cunning, and will be able to take control from whoever is currently
the boss.”
Chèri
nodded, and turned to the man she’d never met before. She smiled,
and gave him a brief bow. “Glad to have you on board.”
“Thank
you, my Lady!” He returned the bow, but made it much deeper and
more respectful. “Please, call me Gan.”
“Nice
to meet you, Gan,” Chèri smiled, relieved to noticed that he had a
horse waiting for him. He mounted up, and joined her party.
Chèri
squeezed Bo’s hand in thanks. Then, she hugged Kiki again. “Don’t
worry, I’ll be back. I promise that after I return, I’ll visit
you, and we can eat something delicious while we drink tea.”
Kiki
nodded, smiling. “I look forward to it.”
With
nothing left to do, Chèri held out her hand to Ando so that he could
help her onto their horse. She waved goodbye, and they departed the
city.
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