A Reading for Tiffany

Tiffany's Reading

8-23-14 2:37 AM

1 – Present Position – Ace of Swords ↓ – The first card tells me that the majority of your worries are about your children. Possibly one child more than the others, but even so, you do worry about them all. You want the best for your children, and you often feel like they are missing out. I get the feeling that you have one of those minds the just won't stop. This can make it hard to sleep at night, which in turn just makes you worry all the more. You feel tired. Worn out.

2 – Immediate Influence – 5 of Pentacles ↑ – The good news is that you do have help/ this feels like a little bit of luck. A guide or a guardian angel that watches over you and help you out whenever possible. In little ways that are easy to overlook. And yet, I do get the feeling that you are grateful. Despite having a lot of reasons to be depressed, I get the definite feeling that you are cheerful and optimistic about the future.

3 – Distant Future – King of Pentacles ↓ – Well, here he is. I knew he'd turn up in your reading somewhere, but I figured that he'd be in your past. Nope! The father of your children is going to be causing problems for you for a long time to come. It's not that he enjoys messing with you – he actually does feel a sense of responsibility when it comes to taking care of the kids – it's just that he's not quite emotionally mature enough to not cause problems for you. He hasn't quite learned how to live life with grace.

4 – Distant Past – Transition ↑ – This is basically your whole life. I get the feeling that you were raised a certain way, and this way led you to the man you married. You started to change. It was slow, happening a little bit at a time. You found your way. You gained confidence. Like a butterfly, you transformed into a woman! One with a mind of her own!

5 – Recent Past – Queen of Pentacles ↑ – And this transformation left you stronger! Once upon a time ago, you were unsure of yourself. You had no idea how to really take care of yourself, much less children! You looked forward to the challenge :-) These days, you are a capable and patient woman who knows what she wants. You are like a rock. It's not that the Earth never quakes under your feet, it's just that you don't have time to care. You'll weather the storm and move on in the morning.

6 – Recent Future – Justice ↓ – You have a legal matter coming up quickly, and you are worried that it won't go the way you want it to. You just want it to be over – much like ripping off a band-aid. You know it's going to hurt, but you're prepared for it. The quicker it happens, the better!

7 – Present position 2 – Prince of Pentacles ↑ – This feels like a son, but not. A young man who helps you out. He's responsible and such a good boy, a joy to be around. He can also be a bit of a practical joker and a troublemaker. Especially if he's bored!

8 – Environment – 2 of Swords ↓ – You've been neglecting you. You're so busy taking care of everyone else that you have no time for you! As hard as it is, try to make a little time for yourself, otherwise, you're going to snap.

9 – Inner Emotions – 10 of Swords ↓ – Oh the pain. You've been stabbed in the back. Betrayed. Hurt in a way you never thought possible. But thankfully, you're starting to come to terms with what happened and move on. In a way, you feel freer than you ever have. At least not in a long while. I think that part of the reason might be...

10 – Final Outcome – The Lovers ↑ – A new love interest! I'm not saying that you want another husband or even a boyfriend! But you would like someone to talk to; to hang out with. A person who makes you laugh. A lover. And that's what I see. I suspect that you've already met this person, maybe known for a long time. This is someone who is there when you need them, but doesn't need you to be exclusive. Doesn't need to define your relationship. Maybe it's only over the phone or online, but I do think that it's more than that.

Your reading ends on an inspiring note of hope :-)

But that's not all!

This is what the Angels have to say:

New Love. I saw this card and thought yep yep! There's a lover in your life. I really think that you are hesitating to accept this, afraid of getting burned again, but I sense that this new lover is going to be understanding and accepting of that.

Focus. See now, I don't think that you lack focus. So I think that they angels might be trying to tell you that you are focused on the wrong thing. Not entirely, because I feel like you focus the most on your kids. I think the Angels want you to focus more on you and your happiness for a while, because “if Mama ain't happy, ain't nobody happy!”

Self-acceptance. Remember back above when I say that you have transformed like a butterfly? Well part of that change was learning to love and accept yourself. (This makes me wonder at your childhood...) Then you were betrayed and you started to question your self worth. What did I do wrong to push him away? Things like that. Deep down, you know you did nothing wrong, but even so, you need to work on your self esteem again. Remember, you are worth it!

Have a happy day,

Roxanne

A Reading for Alison

Alison's Reading

8-22-14 10:21 PM

• 1 – Present Position – The Sun ↑ - The sun in this position tells me that your entire world right now revolves around your baby. You are in a state of semi shock because part of you wonders if this is real or just a dream. Even so, you love being a mother and couldn't imagine life any other way.
• 2 – Immediate Influence – Five of Cups ↑ - This card tells me more about the feeling of surrealism surrounding. You've had a lot of time to think over the years about kids/what kind of mother you'd be, and you had a lot of things “set” in your mind. That said, you keep wanting to pinch yourself to see if you are dreaming. The reality of the situation is a bit more demanding than you thought it would be, but all in all, you almost feel like you've been dropped in the middle of a fairy tale.
• 3 – Distant Future (up to several months) – Princess of Pentacles ↑ - I feel like this is your sister, but it could also be a close friend. You have always relied upon her for advice and a supportive ear, but over the next few months, you are going to want her as close to you as possible. She's your rock! She has a way of caring for you that is whimsical and childlike even as it is dependable and steady. You need her more than you thought possible.
• 4 – Distant Past (up to a couple of years) – The Lovers ↓ - The last few years, your marriage has been a little rocky. I feel like this is largely in your mind. You blame you. You feel like you are doing quite enough to be the perfect wife. That said, a little more romance would be nice! There's been a strain on your marriage as you have been pressuring yourself to live up to certain expectations, but now that you feel like you have finally accomplished that goal, things should “get better.”
• 5 – Recent Past – The Star ↑ - I am pretty sure that in a previous reading, I mentioned that there was an element of fate/destiny/karma/the plan involved here. I really truly feel that there was an important life lesson you needed to learn in order to get your reward. It took you a few years, but you learned it, and then BAM! You got what you always wanted :-D I feel that the lesson was that you needed to accept yourself no matter what.
• 6 – Recent Future – (next couple of weeks) – The Moon ↓ - Oh the moon... This tells me that you've had and will continue to have an interesting couple of months. I am a little concerned though, are you suffering from a touch of post partum depression? I get the feeling that you are waiting for it to get better, telling yourself that the way you feel is normal and that you shouldn't worry about it. In that, you are absolutely right. That said, don't dismiss your feelings so easily, and if talking to your sister, husband, and friends doesn't help you feel better, then be open to alternative therapies for those inexplicable blues. Strange how one person can feel SOOOO happy and yet strangely sad at the same time, huh?
• 7 – Present Position 2 – The Magus/Magician (Guide) ↓ - I get the sense that there are plenty of questions about motherhood and babies that you want to ask, but you're not really sure who to ask. These are questions that you should ask another mother... a role model... your mother, but you can't, because she is not the role model you want advice from! Guess what, she actually is doing her spiritual job when it comes to guiding you. She's showing you what not to do! Talking with her might actually help you feel better. Not because she's going to make any kind of sense, but if you keep a sense of humor, you can learn to laugh at and learn from the mistakes of others.
• 8 – Environment – The Hierophant (Teacher) ↑ - Yea! Good news! You do actually have someone around you who can help you learn how to be a good mother. Someone you look up to and respect. Who offers good advice – even if in a unique and unexpected way... This could be a good friend. It could even be me! (Lol!) But you know who I think it really is? … I think it's your husband. I think now that he's a father and has to learn what that means, he's doing a lot of his own roundabout research and thinking, and when you two talk to each other about the important issues, you may not see eye to eye, but you always manage to make each other think.
• 9 – Inner Emotions – Princess of Swords ↓ - See, this is why I think you have a touch of PPD. I feel like this card represents a part of yourself. This is the free spirit who has had a much bigger amount of solitude and freedom than she realized until now. I'm not saying that you were prone to partying on a Saturday night, but you did have the time to curl up with a good book and ignore the world if you wanted.

Like me, you had no idea how much you needed that massive amount of alone time to recharge your spiritual batteries. If you needed to veg out after work with a bottle of wine and a good movie, you could. Not now. Now, you have crying and all the tiny precious needs of a beautiful new being to attend to. Yes, you love it. Yes you wouldn't change it for the world. Yes, you still need alone time! Don't be afraid to ask for what you need.

• 10 – Final Outcome – Ace of Swords ↑ - The final outcome of the reading is that even though your life has had a LOT of ups and downs recently – more ups than down – enough to practically build a rollercoaster! You still love the way your life is right now. It mostly like you've always thought it would be, and you are excited to see all the little milestones your baby will make – first laugh, first word, first step, first day of school... Just remember, in all of this, try not to completely lose the you that you were before you became a mom. Good luck!

Love,

Roxanne

BUT WAIT!! Didn't I forget something (you ask)? No... I just wondered if you were paying attention, lol!

Your angels have this to say:

Retreat – Don't forget to take time for yourself! Even if you have to schedule in a five minute break just once a day, do it! You need it :-)

Divine Guidance – We hear you talking to God. You've asked for help and guidance, and rest assured, we're here to give it to you. Simply listen to your heart and be open to small, everyday miracles.

Romance – Just because you are parents now, doesn't mean that Romance has to die completely! Remember, it's the little things that count the most. A stolen kiss while the baby naps. Snuggling at night even though you're too exhausted to do anything else. Understanding that it may take a lot of time before you're even ready to do anything else! Just like you might have to schedule in a well-deserved five minute break, try to remember in a minute or two to simply hold each other and say “I love you!”

3 Card Spread

I was asked to do a quick reading to find out why a boy is holding back his affections. I decided to do a 3 Card Reading because I knew it would answer the question. Here's what came up:

The first and third card are reversed, and the extra card at the end kept popping out in all different positions, so I added it to the end since it wanted to be part of the reading so badly, lol!

The first card refers to his kids. He's afraid of them getting hurt.

Why, you might ask? Well the 2nd card tells me that he's still not entirely certain that this relationship is fated to work out. He's afraid that it's not going to be happily ever after.

The third card tells me that he's also afraid that his girlfriend will just up and leave him when he no longer interests her. He thinks she may just be using him...

The last card, the one that kept popping up, both right side up and reversed, tells me that he just doesn't know how the relationship will work out, BUT - if it does, he's pretty sure it'll be happy and loving :-)

So, to answer the question, he's holding back because he's afraid, and the only way to calm his fears is to just keep being your sweet and loving self and wait until he accepts that you are not playing with him, and that you are not planning to leave him the moment he and his kids fall utterly in love with you. :-D

Reflections on Tarot Reading

I love to read Tarot cards. I've done so ever since I got my first deck for christmas in 98. I've done some simply amazing readings! I've done readings where I've said things like: You find out this in the next two weeks or so, and immediately after the reading, the person got a call and - sure enough - found out the news that I said they would. That's really validating to me!

I've also had readings where the person was completely closed to me. They WANTED me to be wrong about everything, so no matter what I said, they told me I wasn't making sense. I've also had days where I had a headache or the cards simply wern't speaking to me.

Even so, I trust my cards and my ability to read them. I've toyed with the idea of reading cards professionally since I was about 21 - back in 2001. However, even when I advertised, I never did get much business.

Recently, I asked my Angels and the universe to help me earn an income using my (writing) skills, and their answer was to immediately send me an invitation to read my cards at a party. It took me a while, but it finally occurred to me that I should listen to my Angels. So, as of today, I am putting it out there:

Dear Angels, I asked for help and you indicated that I should try making an income by reading my cards. I will do my best to follow your advice, and now, all I ask, is that you send me plenty of opportunity in the form of people who want a reading. Thank you for all the help you have given me so far. I pray that I am in the position to pay it forward someday :-)

Love Roxanne

A New Tarot Card Reading

Reading

1-4-12 11:26PM CST

Moon in Taurus

↓ = reversed or upside down. ↑ = upright.

I love to do readings for people I have never met before because I don’t know anything about them. However, the same reason also handicaps me in a way. I start suffering from doubt. I trust my guides and my cards, but I have no way of knowing if I am interpreting them correctly or if I am just making up a story. This reading in particular made me do a double-take.  There’s just enough correlation to me and my life that I started to wonder if I was really reading for someone else. Therefore, if I am WAY OFF BASE, please let me know! Also, I feel I must apologize, when I do a reading, I tell it like it is, so it comes off as… direct and possibly offensive. Please don’t think I intend any insult!

In my readings, I use a layout called a Celtic cross, which is the standard layout for most readings. Each position has a meaning, and I’ll tell you about it as I go.

1 – Present Position. – This position indicates the most important part of the current situation. – ↑Sun – I don’t think I’ve ever had this card come up in this position and upright before. J Blessings; optimism – which is not your strong suit, but you are trying. Sounds to me that you are going to have a good year. It’s more than that; it’s just recently that you woke up and realized how fortunate you really are. You feel lucky… to a point.

2 – Immediate Influence – This position tells me more about the current situation. It clarifies the first card. – ↑ 5 of Swords – You consider yourself smart, full of common sense; capable of taking care of yourself. Almost aloof, and yet you do have one friend or guide that you can rely on from time to time. Someone who has helped you to realize that things aren’t so bad after all.

3 – Distant Future – This position usually refers the next 3 to 6 months up to a year, and is not predicting the future so much as reflecting the situation if it continues. -↓ 4 of Wands – I get the sense that you’re working hard to maintain your home. It feels like – due to working less or perhaps a disability – you are struggling and this hurts even more because you love your home. It’s like a cozy little nest you can snuggle in whenever you just need to hide from the world.

4 – Distant Past – This position can and often does refer to a period of years before the reading. – ↓ 10 of Swords – Okay… The position of this card is strange. It’s like you have this incredibly painful past, but you tried hard to… ignore it, until you felt numb. I’m going to go one step further and say that you eventually realized that living life while feeling numb – or even nothing at all – wasn’t really living. So, you decided to change that. Easier said than done, huh?

5 – Recent Past – This position usually talks about the events in the last few months up to a year that is like the catalyst to your current situation. In your case, it goes back even farther than that. – ↓ Princess of Cups – Ahhh… This is your “wild” days. You reached a point in your late teens where you were fed up with the crap you had to deal with each day, and decided to rebel; to drown your feelings with booze and possibly even drugs. Were you a cutter? You were trying to be numb at this point, so I can’t tell if you were to the point of cutting yourself, but I feel like you either were or wanted to.

6 – Recent Future – This position talks about the next few days to next few weeks. – ↓ 5 of Pentacles – Trying to find your path; your spirituality. Your angels and guides have been with you your whole life, so they know what you’ve been through. They try to help, but it feels like you reject them. Like you reject help from anyone. You can do this all by yourself – damnit! – and nobody had better try to tell you otherwise! This only frustrates your angels and makes them feel useless. Do you secretly feel useless?

7 – Present Position 2 – This position clarifies the situation by giving more information. – ↓ King of Cups – Aha! The underlying reason is revealed. Your father or stepfather (father figure) was an asshole and an alcoholic and/or addict. He was/is a man who blames his problems on the world… especially you. He shaped you for a long time. First, you had to deal with him and try to please him, because a happy daddy doesn’t lash out at you as much. So, you were initially timid and did what you were told. Then, you finally had enough, and reacted to what he had put you through by repeating his mistakes (drinking/drugs, etc.). Finally, you are moving on to find the real you. I get the feeling he probably died, and that’s what triggered the “breakthrough.” Though, I could be wrong; you may have just realized one day that you no longer wanted to be the person he’d shaped you into.

8 – Environment – This position talks about the situation at home, work, or school. – ↑ 4 of Swords – It’s been a struggle, but you’ve seen the rewards of your efforts. You know there’s a good reason to keep going, and you’re even at peace… mostly.

9 – Inner Emotions – This position talks about what is going on in your emotions. ↑ 2 of Pentacles – This card… It comes up surprisingly frequently in this position. I’ve previously stated that you’ve gone through stages that made you numb. Well, this card tells me that you learned another valuable coping technique: put on a mask and hide your true feelings from the rest of the world. With your mask on, you can be falling apart on the inside, but all anyone else will see is the act you put on. “I’m happy. Everything’s fine. Don’t you dare see the real me!”

10 – Final Outcome – This position ties the entire reading together, and sums it all up. – ↓ Magus – At first, I thought this was someone you trusted that is leading you astray, but now I understand. This is that nagging voice in the back of your head that just won’t shut up about all your “negative” qualities. It’s far too easy to believe that this voice is telling you the truth, but you know – now – that it isn’t true at all. You are a good person; you are worthwhile! You want to change, and you will. Do not let this negative voice have power over you any longer!

The Angels Say:

Retreat – You needed to go into seclusion; to separate yourself from the world… for a while. Don’t forget that it’s important to come back too, but you already know that.

Intention ↓ - What do you want to do? You had to make a very narrow goal – to heal from your past, and find yourself as a person. You’ve accomplished a lot, so… What now? You can’t move forward until you figure out where you want to go.

Soulmate – This card came up, but it’s like a teaser. Seriously, even I don’t know. Do you still yearn for your soulmate, or did you find your one true love? Personally, I think you’re yearning, like it’s your next goal in life.

Spiritual Growth – This one jumped out as if to say, “Don’t forget about me!” You are on your own spiritual path, and have made progress. Keep going, and don’t be afraid to ask for help from your Angels.

Indriel – Now that you have discovered your optimism, and decided to walk down the path to spirituality, Indriel has this to say:

“You are a lightworker. God (or Goddess if you prefer) needs you to shine your Divine light and love – like an Angel – upon the Earth and all its inhabitants.” AKA – Help those that need it that you can help. Lend an ear and give sympathy.

Tarot Card Reading

Reading

11/21/11 3:40PM CST

Moon in Libra

↓ = reversed or upside down. ↑ = upright.

In my readings, I use a layout called a Celtic cross, which is the standard layout for most readings. Each position has a meaning, and I’ll tell you about it as I go.

 NOTE: I could not get one clear picture of all the cards, so here's two, they are supposed to be side by side :-) The first picture has cards 1,2,3,5,+6, and the second picture has cards 4,7,8,9,+10

1 – Present Position. – This position indicates the most important part of the current situation. As I was shuffling, this card literally jumped out at me, so I know it wanted to have its say. The card is the Hanged One↑.  This indicates a feeling of being in limbo; your hands are tied; inability to do what you really want, so you are waiting.

2 – Immediate Influence – This position tells me more about the current situation. It clarifies the first card. The card is the 3 of Wands ↓, which indicates a longing to go somewhere or do something. This can also be a need to run away, and lets me know that we are talking about why you’ve been having your dream.

3 – Distant Future – This position usually refers the next 3 to 6 months up to a year, and is not predicting the future so much as reflecting the situation if it continues. The card is the 6 of Wands ↓. Your spiritual journey is stuck. Aha! You’re anxious to be more spiritual, but you keep getting bogged down in the mundane.

4 – Distant Past – This position can and often does refer to a period of years before the reading.  The card is the Star ↑.  You are on the right path, and you are following the choices you made a few years ago. This is where you are supposed to be according to your Life’s Plan. (Note: when I talk about a Life’s Plan, I am referring to my belief that everyone – before they are born – signs up for life lesson’s they must learn, and create a plan for how their life is supposed to go.)  This is where you are supposed to be, and you do have guides to help you… even if you don’t realize it.

5 – Recent Past – This position talks about the events in the last few months up to a year that is like the catalyst to your current situation. The card is the 7 of Wands ↓. Ok, here’s the basis of your discontent. There are far too many Wands here – all upside down – which indicates that you are struggling with your chosen “career.” (This can be anything you consider work or even a goal in life.) You love it, and find it challenging and rewarding. However, the day to day struggle gets to be overwhelming! It feels TOO hard, TOO challenging… Too much like work.

6 – Recent Future – This position talks about the next few days to next few weeks. The card is the Justice ↓. This indicates a legal issue that isn’t going your way. It can also refer to an issue in which you feel things just aren’t fair. I’m combining this with the previous card, and getting a sense of whining. Life’s not going the way you want it to, so you are throwing something of a tantrum.

7 – Present Position 2 – This position clarifies the situation by giving more information. The card is the Ace of Wands ↑. While Aces can refer to a new opportunity, I believe that this card directly indicates that your children/grandchildren are important to you. Vital, in fact. I get the feeling that if you didn’t have someone smallish and fairly innocent to depend on and look up to you, you wouldn’t care about getting out of bed at all.

8 – Environment – This position talks about the situation at home, work, or school. The card is the Prince of Swords ↑. This is your son – or someone you consider to be like a son. He’s one smart cookie (and a smartass!) and he can talk things trough from a different perspective. You rely on him, which is good. Go to him for advice, and try to listen.

9 – Inner Emotions – This position talks about what is going on in your emotions. The entire reading has talked a lot about your emotions, but this is what you feel deep down inside. The card is the Princess of Swords ↓. Uh-oh! You’re dwelling in the past. You tend to think of how you were when you were young. Life was so much simpler then, and you could do anything! You were smart, and things often went your way. You wonder what happened to that girl, and what life would be like if you had done things differently.

10 – Final Outcome – This position ties the entire reading together, and sums it all up. The card is the Empress ↓. It seems like your entire day revolves around being a mom. You want to be the best mom ever, but it seems like so much effort. You just never get a break. You like to be depended on, but you HATE to be tied down. Where’s your freedom? Where’s your ability to just get up and go? You used to be able to go wherever you wanted. You miss that! I prescribe a solitary vacation OR a set amount of time each day (20 minutes to an hour) where you lock yourself away, play music, and just be alone. Escape from the world to recharge your batteries. You need it! (Literally.)

Now, I pull cards from a different deck, one that tells me what your Angels want to say to you, and they say:

There are two things that you find therapeutic. Romance, and Playfulness. When you get a single flower from someone (could be a random stranger or a loved one), your whole day feels brighter. Also, when you have a few moments to romp on the floor with a child or an animal, you literally feel better. (Perhaps old and short of breath, but spiritually and emotionally better.)

You desperately want Divine Guidance. You want someone to tell you what to do. So, here it is: Worry less, and play more. Life should be enjoyable, so give yourself permission to have fun, and have faith that things will turn out all right in the end.

From my other Angel deck, I pulled:

Serena – the Angel of Abundance. (This card didn’t seem to have any relation to the reading, until the last sentence, so I decided to include it after all.) You will receive the money you need. Let go, and let God. Have Faith!